Sometimes I feel so disconnected with the people around me. I don't feel the joy and I don't see the beauty. I know God's beautiful creations are everywhere and if I even put in an iota of effort, I will see it. But alas, I don't feel like it.
I turned 39 not too long ago and as always I wanted a quiet dinner with the kids and husband. There were a few unexpected guests who came over, with very good intentions of celebrating with us but I wasn't feeling too sociable. While they sat and had cake and chit chat, I was spacing out for most part of the time.
I feel like I am losing my mojo. Not sure what I need to do to reconnect but you know, I am also afraid that I am liking being distant a little too much. I feel like I need my space but I'm not sure what I'd do with all that space? Is this mid life crisis? Too many questions with no answers. Maybe it's time for more self-reflection...
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Is this a mid-life crisis? Could be. Everyone's is different, and they sneak up on you without the decency or adab to warn you that, yes, this is indeed a mid-life crisis. :) I went through mine about nine years ago, which is why I now live in Asia instead of back home in the US. (You never know how these things will be resolved! ;) ) I don't know that more self-reflection is necessary; in your case it may only make things worse - you're already withdrawing from people by your own admission.
oh no! i'm not even 29 yet! will i experience a mid-life crisis toooo? eek!
well, at least you're somewhat troubled by your feelings of being "disconnected"... i'm sure there are lots of forty-somethings out there who've come to accept this as a natural state of being. now that's sad.
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