Have you ever?

Feel like all you do is run fast but not knowing if you're going anywhere? Going nowhere fast. A friend at work had that apt description of my situation (and hers) when we were both deliberating our career progression over a cup of steaming coffee (for her) and tea (for me).

But then again, it's hard to go anywhere if you don't know where you want to be, in the first place, right? Where do *I* want to be?

If you've been reading this blog long enough, you'll know I have always harboured the dream of being a SAHM. A SUPER stay-at-home-mum, not just any SAHM.

But I also like the work I do. It drives me up the wall sometimes but in general, I take great sense of pride from a work well done. It is a personal accomplishment for me. Just as much as the sense of pride I get from watching my kids' successes.

There are times though when I feel I am giving up one for the other. When work becomes too much and needs more attention, I feel like I am sacrificing family time. And when the family demands the attention, work takes second place but work never really stops. It just sits there and wait until sometimes it explodes in my face.

I still haven't figured out if I am really made for the corporate world or the SAHM world. The alternative of juggling the two is making me tired.